Impromptu (and Obligatory?) Moving Post!

I've decided it's about time to restart my blog.

Mostly because I think that I've actually come to a point where I have something interesting to write about, moving.

Not just any kind of moving. But moving out of my parents house, where I've lived surrounded by my family (lots of people, lots of things going on, all the time) into an apartment of my own (small, alone, just me, all the time).

It's going to be a whirlwind (it already feels like thunder storm) and sometimes, especially when I've had a long day and I'm not feeling well and I think about it too much, I'm absolutely frightened by the idea of moving out.

It's scary being on your own after being not on your own for 20+ years.

Honestly though, with work and school and life and winter, stress is frequently overwhelming for me as is. So why I decided that now would be a good time to move out into my own apartment and add regular rent payments and transportation struggles to the list, is beyond me.

But that's what I decided to do. (The cheap rent and great neighbors helps...)

Tonight, I met the landlord, signed the lease, and put down the security deposit.

It was strange, meeting him. He was nice, military trained. I think he was surprised that I was able to sustain eye contact with him so well. Years in customer service, retail, and having relatives and friends in the military make my comfortable with that but it still surprises people. Pleasantly though, I think.

Anyway, the whole thing felt a bit like an impromptu job interview. Especially since I was in my work clothes still. Although... it was almost more stressful because he was to be taking my money instead of paying me more.

Still, I got through it. Paid my dues, planned the day we would get underway.

Nerves are still crippling my ability to function optimally but I'm doing my best to focus on and “pulse positive emotions” as my Positivity Coach is teaching me.

Now to finish some school work, start drawing up a list of apartment supplies and begin the long, arduous process of packing...

Wish me luck~!